After eight years of feeling like there was a veil between me and my Father in heaven, yesterday morning it was lifted, and it was incredible.  I have been reading “Walking with God” for three weeks now and started using the personal study guide.  For the first time, I prayed what the Lord revealed was opposing my walk with Him, what was making it hard for me to hear his voice.  False accusation, distraction, diminishment and spiritual blindness (Fog of War). I prayed it once, then, at His prompting, once more.  Then I paused.  I heard Him say "family" so I prayed for the binding of those things from my wife and daughter as well.  Waited.  I asked Him to show what I need to do to be a better father and husband.  Of my daughter He said, "Be with her.  Accept her.  Don't ignore her."  Of my wife: "Don't accuse, accept her. . ."  All these things mean something very specific to me personally.  Then out of what seemed like nowhere, Christ showed up.  I felt his spirit well up in me and immediately the enemy jumped in to diminish it.  "That's not Him."  But a voice interjected, "No, it's me."  "No, it’s the Holy Spirit," I agreed. I began to weep and laugh and feel his love.  From the center of my being to the tips of my fingers.  I have only felt that once, eight years ago at the beginning of my personal battle and always assumed it was a fluke.  Someone's blessing wrongly given to me.  How could I be chosen in that way?  Now, when I least expected it, (and God's timing is incredible) He reveals He was there all along.  The Evil One had just been blocking me.  It was no mistake so stop striving.  It's as if now all the things I felt prompted by God to begin in my life but didn't over fear of being wrong, had all along been right.  I have the green light, the go ahead, permission.  I have His assurance that no matter what happens, He is in control, as He always has been.  That I am truly His.  What clarity.  What Love.  WHAT FREEDOM!!