“What do you want me to do for you?” Jesus asked him.
Recovering your true heart’s desire may involve facing some deep disappointment. Undoubtedly, it will require painful self-examination. But you do not need to fear what you will find.
Many committed Christians are wary about getting in touch with their desires, not because they want to settle for less, but because they fear that they’ll discover some dark hunger lurking in their hearts. The father of lies takes many people out of the battle and ends their journey by keeping them in the shallows of their desire, tossing them a bone of pleasure, thus convincing them that they are satisfied. However, once you begin to move from that place, his strategy changes. He threatens you about going into the deep waters by telling you that your core desires are evil.
Yes, you still struggle with a tendency to kill desire or give your heart over to false desires. But that is not who and what you truly are. If you really believe the new covenant, you’ll be able to embrace your desire. Jesus asks you a simple question: What do you want? Don’t minimize it; don’t try to make sure it sounds spiritual; don’t worry about whether you can obtain it. Just stay there until you begin to get an answer. This is the way you keep current with your heart.
This would be a good thing to journal about: What do you want these days? Don’t minimize it; don’t try to make it sound spiritual; don’t worry about whether you can obtain it. Just stay there until you begin to get an answer.