HEALING, LEARNING AND TRAINING - STORIES FROM BOOT CAMP

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It's a miracle that I came (to Boot Camp) this weekend, really.  On August 8, 2010 I was at the lowest of lows.  I confessed to my beautiful wife that I was headed down the road of an affair with another woman during the past summer.  God's kindness led to my repentance and He saved me from total destruction.  While I never followed through on it, I came close enough and have caused incredible damage to my marriage.

I was looking for validation in all the wrong areas.  I knew the warnings in Proverbs about the adulterous woman, but my choices revealed my need for a strength I didn't possess.  My daily life, though blessed with a beautiful wife and three amazing kids, became a relentless reminder that I didn't measure up.

Earlier that May I met with my Pastor and he spoke a prophetic word over me though we hadn't known each other for more than 10 minutes.  He said, "Josh, I feel like God is telling me that you need to be involved in ministry somehow, someway."  From that point on, Satan unleashed hell on me and the seductive words of another woman hooked me.  Over a period of three months the warfare was so great that I fell and chose to seek validation in another woman, to escape my life and to run for God.

My life was filled with shame, guilt and accusations before and during all of this.  One guy I confessed to, who I barely knew (and initially wanted to fight as he walked through my front door on the day I confessed) directed me towards this weekend and called you guys to get me in this.  He gave me the Four Streams CD's and since then a miraculous transformation has been occurring.  At a time when I, in the worlds eyes, should feel ashamed, condemned and disqualified, I feel just the opposite.  I feel confident, no condemnation and qualified to share God's forgiveness, grace, mercy and overwhelming love.  For the First time in my life I feel equipped as a son of God.  

I feel the ability to silence the enemies lies he would hurl at me.  For the first time since my earthly father suddenly died in my arms to a freak heart disorder, I feel and now see and hear my true heavenly Father speaking to me.  I feel God's calling on my life to be transformed, to lead other wounded men, and to be a man that fights for the sacred things in life.

While I know the days in front of me are going to be a time of healing, learning and training, I also know God has spoken to me that I will use this story one day.  Wild at Heart Ministries hits so close to my core, it calls out my story and I am evidence of the tremendous power God is revealing through this ministry.

- Josh

 

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